Memorial Day

Dealing with remembering the loss of friends and shipmates.  It was also the day I to back from 8 month deployment right after 9/11 attacks.

Just another day

As I write this I must think back to earlier times.  I was reminded of my fears.  It is the fear of something but myself and how I can be.  If I don't control myself than I can lose all control.  I used to and still do some really stupid things.  Most people say they don't fear death but I have almost died so many times.  Not that I was shot at which wouldn't be so bad.  It was little things that occurred that makes think about it.  I have no regards for life. Maybe I should live it more to love it more.  Not feeling pain and other senses can get to you.  Giving up most of your vices will do that to.

Please excuse my rambles but is have to put them somewhere.  Need the release point.  Don't want the idle mind to have too many thoughts.  

Ok I think I better stop.

My First Post

Just wanted to start by saying.  I am not sure how this is going to work out but my wife does this so I hope it will help me.  Dealing with lots of stress with work and my VA claim.  Oh yes the wonderful backlog issue and mine wasn't even backlogged it was just rushed through without any regards. 

I am heavily involved with Veterans in my work and my off time so I feel there pain.  I am just hoping I can get through it.  Learn what I am dealing with and how to conquer it. 

Hope all goes well.