Dealing with things

It is difficult dealing with so many things.  It can be extremely overwhelming at times but I have to just take one day at a time. Just remember to review my SMART goals and remember why I am trying to achieve them.  I am really hoping that this will motivate me to express myself more or to write more.  Not sure if it has already but I have other goals that I am striving for.  Also our goals don't always have to the only thing we try for.  My wife is working on hers so me aiding her helps me too because we build a better bond and we know that we are there to support one and another.

It I also one of my goals to come up with great strategies to help veterans improve themselves but we will wait and see.  So until the next time have fun you all.

Dealing with things

It is difficult dealing with so many things.  It can be extremely overwhelming at times but I have to just take one day at a time. Just remember to review my SMART goals and remember why I am trying to achieve them.  I am really hoping that this will motivate me to express myself more or to write more.  Not sure if it has already but I have other goals that I am striving for.  Also our goals don't always have to the only thing we try for.  My wife is working on hers so me aiding her helps me too because we build a better bond and we know that we are there to support one and another.

It I also one of my goals to come up with great strategies to help veterans improve themselves but we will wait and see.  So until the next time have fun you all.

Getting a new book on Anxiety Disorder

Well I bought a new book by Dr. Amen on Depression and Anxiety Disorder and how to treat it.  There are so many different types of mental disorders how can you definitely classify what you have.  I have been told I have different types by different specialists.  They all have similar symptoms and mine tend to vary depending on how I am doing at that time.  So what do I really have. 

I just wish I knew so that way I would know what is going with me and how I can fix it.  I know some of it is just me and it is also how I learn to deal with things.  You can't jam a person into a small space with a lot of other people and not expect them to find different ways to deal with things.  You have no where to hide or run.  So you hide in yourself. 

I think the getting out and exercising this seems to relieve a lot of the built up energy that I have.  It doesn't help it all the time since my mind is always racing.  I am also trying to catch it so it doesn't seem that my writing is all over the place. 

Some day I will find my peace.

Killing Me

Do you have those days where your spouse is just driving you nuts.  You know they are just huge pains.  Not listening to to and wondering why you are upset.  If you would listening would understand.  The simple things in life, communication.  Well you mode on and deal with it.  No day is ever perfect it is what you do when it is not or the person you live with is driving you absolutely mad.  So the joys continue.

A know it all

I am sorry to say I come off as a know it all.  I can see trends that may occur before they do.  It is a macro way of looking things.  This does upset people since they want to know people are going to be affected.  Well it is just a way of viewing things and can be a downfall if people around you don't understand.  I know my weaknesses and I am proud of them since it makes me human. I know I don't see things the way most people do and I can't do a lot of things people do.  It is frustrating sometimes when people think the simple things are easy which they might to them but the complex are simple to me.  

I have a good life.  A job I enjoy and a wife who deals with me.  Truly got to love her for that.  I will live and survive.

Good Day

Had a great day besides being extremely depressed for most of it.  I had the opportunity to attend an award ceremony for a local JROTC unit.  It is nice to see our future.  These are the reasons I do what I do.  Work with Veteran Service Organizations allows me to help the community which helps me.  I know Veterans, so I feel more comfortable around them.

Good day! 

Moving on

I am doing better with no more stress and more excercise. 

Leadership and Comrades

You always expect your great leaders to be the ones supporting and guiding you.  Your comrades to be support mechanism to which you can rely. So when you don't get either what you get?  Lost and abandon with no clear path!  You wonder why so many vets are having problems.  Where is the support structure.  When you are in the heat of the battle you never notice since you are all together fighting in the same battle.

I am t least surviving.  That is saying a lot.

Memorial Day

Dealing with remembering the loss of friends and shipmates.  It was also the day I to back from 8 month deployment right after 9/11 attacks.

Just another day

As I write this I must think back to earlier times.  I was reminded of my fears.  It is the fear of something but myself and how I can be.  If I don't control myself than I can lose all control.  I used to and still do some really stupid things.  Most people say they don't fear death but I have almost died so many times.  Not that I was shot at which wouldn't be so bad.  It was little things that occurred that makes think about it.  I have no regards for life. Maybe I should live it more to love it more.  Not feeling pain and other senses can get to you.  Giving up most of your vices will do that to.

Please excuse my rambles but is have to put them somewhere.  Need the release point.  Don't want the idle mind to have too many thoughts.  

Ok I think I better stop.

My First Post

Just wanted to start by saying.  I am not sure how this is going to work out but my wife does this so I hope it will help me.  Dealing with lots of stress with work and my VA claim.  Oh yes the wonderful backlog issue and mine wasn't even backlogged it was just rushed through without any regards. 

I am heavily involved with Veterans in my work and my off time so I feel there pain.  I am just hoping I can get through it.  Learn what I am dealing with and how to conquer it. 

Hope all goes well.